Darker Shades of Blue

She was once the brightest white
Until someone came and painted her blue.
The melancholy swept through her being.
Time passed and she grew indigo.
For long she’s been suffering from her transition.
And so she decided to end it…

She chose to be as black as oblivion
So she won’t be transparent.
She grasped to embrace darkness
So no one could see through her core;
Thus, no one could ever hurt her anymore.

She surrounded herself with poison
So no one would try to verge upon her wall
Nor try to ask her what’s wrong,
Because even herself cannot explain
What her pith’s trying to say.

She hid the sparkle—as small sa firefly’s butt inside her
So that no predator could ever
be attracted to it and thrash it.
After all, that little light is her only chance
To find her way back to her lost self,
And mend her tainted lost soul.

– M.R.A.

I Still

I still think of you whenever I look at the moon
I still remember you whenever I hear our song
I still write your name on the window’s moist
I still yearn to hear your voice

I still look for you in the crowd
I still see myself waking up in your arms
I still read your horoscope after I read mine
I still pine since I’ve lost you in my life

I still imagine our life together
I still wonder what you are doing every hour
I still think of you as my true love
I still wish at 11:11 to have you back

I still hate you for depleting my core
I still miss you even after all the torture
I still feel messed up when it comes to you
I still feel my stomach churn when I think of you

I still try to forget you
I still try to let go
I still love you
But I’m trying real hard not to.

– M.R.A.